Thursday, June 19, 2014
Let Myself Go
The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
Love. We hear about it all the time. Songs on the radio, books and TV shows constantly throw the word love around. Many a young girl has been caught up in all those media-laced ideas of love and what it looks like. Like, how many red roses will he send you if he's really in love? Or, will he magically pick out the biggest ring and propose to me with a photographer hidden in the bushes? I admit, that the image of love that our society portrays to us is very enticing. But it falls short, doesn't it. We all have stories, some funny and some not so funny, of when the fairytale came to a screetching halt!
Isn't it funny how human love is blown way out of proportion, while the true love story of the universe has been minimized to the point that it barely gets mentioned in an average daily conversation, even amongst Christians. Why is that?
My why is this. Right now, at this place today, I'm struggling. Struggling to not second-guess myself constantly because I'm not sure what I'm supposed to feel of this love from God. I'm struggling to not be terrified that Jesus is going to tell me, I never knew you. I'm struggling not to compare how I feel by what others tell me they feel. But as I've processed these thoughts and struggles, I've realized the basis of it all. I'm struggling to let myself go into my Father's Arms.
Oh, how desperately I want to, but I'm not a let myself go kind of person. I'm the always in control, never let them see you question, roll-with-it kind of person. But I don't want to be that kind of person with God anymore. I want to cling to Him with everything that is in me. I want to radiate His love because I've finally let myself go. I want Him to amaze those around me, through me. I want to live in the verse from Zephaniah 3:17 that I've quoted above. I want God to quiet me by His love.
So let this be my declaration of God's love. I declare that I am going to let myself go into God's love. Will you join me?
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I'm there Erin - I'm letting myself go and I am declaring with you. Right now I need to be quiet by His love. Thanks for sharing precious lady. Love you! Debbie W. (Proverbs 31 Ministries OBS Team)
ReplyDeleteYESS!! I'm running to Him arms open to receive His love, there is no place I would rather be-holding me still, holding me near...
ReplyDeleteErin I struggle with the control issue also and have a lot of the same questions/fears. I will join you and let myself go!
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ReplyDeleteI loved what you've shared, as usual! (I was tickled when I realized one of the blog numbers I'd selected to read turned out to be yours)
I really do get what you are saying here, because I am that same kind of girl--don't let them see you struggle, always have things planned and under control, don't say the wrong thing, be strong, etc., etc.
And that is often a miserable way to exist. I am walking this same walk, as I have promised myself to stop this charade and JUST BE MYSELF. Not the person everyone expects me to be (including me), but the person that God loves and Christ redeemed. I promise to pray over your struggle as I pray over mine--that we will both just surrender to Him.
Sandi Brewer, Proverbs31 OBS Ministry Team
Great post Erin! I have to say, you don't ever have to question if Jesus knows you....He definitely does. ;)
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