Blah Days

Do you ever go through times in your life when you feel like the blah version of yourself? Oh you continue on like nothing is really wrong and put on a good front for others to see, but in your head, you know that things aren't quite right.

And deep down, you know why things aren't right. Your relationship with God isn't your priority. You've let it slip down a few notches.  Even if you get around to reading your Bible, the words seem hollow. And your prayers? They become something you say by routine, if you bother to pray at all.

So what next. You know you have a problem; how do you fix it.  Some people would say to just "buck up" or "just get through it".  In my opinion, that's when you become numb to God and it your blah days can turn into blah years.

There was a time in my life when I was good at going through the motions. Good at covering up when I felt blah.  But that was a time in my life when I didn't have people in my life who I would trust enough to tell all my struggles too. Because let's face it, during those blah times, aren't you glad that those you come in contact with don't have ESP. So now, thanks to where God has led me in my life, I have close friends and family who I can be real with.  Real about all the internal struggles.  Who will pray with me when I can't find the words.

Now those blah times are much fewer and far between. But occasionally, they do come back. And I don't think they are always a bad thing. Because there is one thing that runs through my head during my blah days, "Is this what it's like without God?"  My blah days, I truly feel, are allowed my God to reveal to me how my neighbour who doesn't know him feels. It gives me a fresh perspective on the daily life of an unbeliever and how struggling through a day on my own strength without God feels.

So next time you have a day where you feel God is far away, remember that there is someone who lives that way every day and needs to hear about Jesus Christ.